"I was humming as i walked down the rough thin lanes of the forest. Tall trees were still moist from the rain last night. Weather was pleasantly cold and so i kept on singing. White, red, yellow flowers made the canvas look brighter. The sound of the nearby river rushing towards the majestic waterfall wall, enchanting, was music for my words. I had never realized that nature could be so majestic, so wild and at the same time so peaceful. I was afraid to go towards the waterfall and stand and admire its beauty. I was too small in its existence and it scared me.
I made my way running down the hill along side the pebbles. I could see the waterfall at a sight close enough to feel it and far enough to not fall into it. Humming and imagining what it would be like to live here for some days i was walking carelessly. I forgot what made the forest so alive. I forgot what else can be majestic. I forgot that avoiding something doesn't necessarily mean it will never find you. There i saw..
It was standing in front of me. Looking at me. Calm, composed and ferocious. I froze where i stood. Suddenly the sound of my heart pounding and the water running became so clear. No animal spoke, no bird flew. I wanted to run as fast as i could but i was afraid. This time i won't survive. I won't live. I stood there like a stone and so did he. I wanted it to go away. Some moments later i felt the curse of no motion lift. Then it started walking towards me. Strong powerful legs, beautiful brown skin, hair flowing in the wind, the overpowering aura, the strong jaw. It was hauntingly beautiful but i was scared of it. Then i saw its eyes. Warm, kind, full of love. There was something about them that made me trust it, that made me somehow believe that its not going to hurt me. Its there to protect me. I said to myself i do not need to be protected. That was the first time it spoke to me. It said, 'I am here to protect you. If you do not need that i won't go away. I will stay here as long as i think you need me. If you do not need me, i will go but i will still be around and whenever your heart will call out to me, i will come to you.' Suddenly i felt it, i felt the power of something extraordinary rushing through my veins. I felt the energy of the nature inside of me. I felt the courage in my heart. I was no longer afraid of the majestic waterfall or afraid of the lion that just spoke to me. I was awestruck by the beauty that surrounded me. I was awestruck that i had conquered what i feared the most. I was awestruck because i finally felt power in my heart, mind and soul. Then he came and stood beside me. Suddenly i saw myself standing at the waterfall. the sound of peace in wild. The sight passionate, big and magnificent. I breathed that day." I opened my eyes and smiled. I rushed to my meditation guru to tell her what i just saw. She told me these things were special and so is the power that creates it in our imagination. Our mind, our heart and our soul.
A couple of months later, i was in the cafeteria sipping my hot streaming coffee and enjoying the rain. This still is my favorite season of the city. The cold rains and the sea just steals my heart every-time i look at them. Then he came. Strong, powerful, beautiful tan skin, hair flowing from the wind and that overpowering aura. I was intimidated by him. I had seen him before, but i hadn't seen him enough. That day i saw his eyes. They were the same eyes. Warm and kind and full of love. I just smiled and looked away. What i didn't see was that so did he.
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