I am aware that it's weird.. :)

Friday, April 1, 2011

On a midsummer night

To draw a line or to define,
some questions are only asked in mind..
But the curious heart still walks along,
the paths and leaves that sang a song..
A song for it never called its own..
the dark winds.. the darker shore...
Away it ran but it was not its own..
the little red beats in someone else's moan
it reached the sea to see the ship sail..
to disappear in the world even more frail..

invisible lines are harder to define..
the sorrow stuck moon but did shine..
what followed were the footsteps of a ghost,
a past, a present, a future without hope..

Saturday, February 19, 2011

BoX

'I live in a box of esteem and grace.
I live in a box of age.
I live in a box of revolution.
I live in a box thats staged.

Another box of prejudice.
Another box of smiles.
Another box of mischief.
Another box of lies.'

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Indistinct


'The winds of change i wish i could dislike..
I want to run away in disguise..
Where no man know my name..
Where there is no one to blame..
I don’t have a past i don’t see ahead..
Am the wind which never rests..


The change in me is changing me..
I have lost myself my dignity..
I was inspired i am still now..
My head still high afraid to ask how..
I am the wind i am the change..
I am familiar i am strange..'

Louuu,
Pk'

Thursday, January 27, 2011

"Ebony's Heart"

The brightest star was shining in all its glory making lives miserable everywhere.Still, there were people on the streets who had errands to run and some money to earn. A little girl sat in the corner of her empty house looking outside her poor window. She knew her mother and father won't be back until dusk still she waited; in desperation, in anxiety. She was to be at her school but she couldn''t put her soul together anymore because she had died.

No she wasn't in pain or in shock. There wasn't a dark story lurking at her from far that made her what she had become at this hour; wretched, broken and weak. She had seen 'Her' again. Through the broken glass of her window, stained with blood, she saw 'Her'. As if her soul was blazing again, as if she was the one who was aberrant. She ran. Ran from her class and fell off to the ground. 3 floors deep. She died and the one who waited in the shadows was cold, it was 'Her'. 'Her's' imagination was a vivid fantasy of a virtuoso. She made the colours blend with a persons soul while she made music out of her hands. She was the enchantress, she was the witch and she illuminated the room the moment she sang her misery. Bright yellow, red and green splashed on the floor. Silver dust fell from the dome as if angels had blessed the rags. Buoyant as she was, she rose like a dream and started floating, swirling in the room for what looked like the mighty ocean, except that the colour was Red. Hours she spent singing and praising, for the song she sang was covetous. The time for the night to descend  had come and she knew she had to follow.

She bountifully reached the mud and silently went back into sitting again in that corner of the little girls' poor house, like a shadow, dark, lean, staring and smiling at the mirror bewitched. The little girl was never coming back and she was never leaving.

Monday, January 17, 2011

FOOD issues.. (Side effects of stupid Detox Diet)

I really thought that with the pressure of studying and writing papers, Detox would be an excellent idea as my mind would be off Food. But let me tell you, such things never happen. There is always a pack of yummy wafers on your friends shelf or the mind boggling smell of the Chicken Bhunas and Tikkas that your neighbour just ordered which makes you reconsider even the very basic concepts of life.

I was once very successful on my detox diet, post which i started eating like a pig and the circle of life completed itself. Point is, what is the point of starving to be thin when ultimately you are going to hog once you reach the ideal weight? God created food as a celebration of life. It taught us to share, it taught to care and gave us a sense of being human rather than just living. Giving up something as divine as that requires courage and strength of mind, body and soul. Even if it is for only 5 days. I mean there are other ways to being thin. You can exercise or practice the art of Yoga but the lazy bone tells you that you would rather not eat. This duel takes a toll on a mortal and things can be very difficult later on.

My mother tells me that you have to believe in one thing for it to make sense to you. You have to choose a side. Leave the Food that tastes good or Leave the couch which feels good. Months later i decide to decide. I decide am going to do both. Eat right and exercise as well so that the guilty DNA's in my body cease to exist and i live happily ever after like a thin girl.

Louu,
PK

PS: Actually its an issue of the society wherein we are obligated to be thin. Having that belly puts you under the spot and then people judge you. Its a shame that in this democratic society where we talk about freedom, no one gives us a right to being Lazy and completely useless. As a citizen of this country and as a human i demand that along with a law that states i would remain equally attractive irrespective of the food and the exercise. (The bhujia packet still stares at me innocently)

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Tragic Zodiac

PRE POST: There has been some endless discussions over my Zodiac Sign in the past and were never concluded. That is why i had no choice but to name my blog, 'Yes i was born on the 21st of July'.


POST: To begin with my mother always told me that Beta our super duper old God on Earth Pandit jee and his 'Divya Vidya' together have made your kundali and the raashi they say is Vrishabh. Meaning that my priest with his supernatural psychic abilities had documented my future in an ugly white paper that ran 4 pages where in he decided with the forces of nature that i am a Tauras. A happy, carefree and least bothered a child that i was, happily nodded and went on to being generally aloof about the things grown ups talked about. My labeling was done and i was sorted.


Then one day suddenly i opened my eyes and discovered. No Tauras is my moon sign and my Zodiac/Sun sign is a Cancer. I looked up online. Checked Linda Goodman's work and other related things, did my research and came up with a conclusion. I am a Cancerian by the Sun sign and a Taurean by the Moon and that justified my personality very well. I was happy and calm and then this Richa Sharma came along. Evil and 'Clean' as she claimed herself to be, she said, 'No. Look at your feet but no. You are not Cancer because i can't digest you can be sooooo much sexy. I think you are very self obsessed and oh dear look at your feet. How am i going to sleep tonight, i will have nightmares about your feet. Look. Yaa, sorry, i got carried away. I conclude and hereby declare that you are a Cusp of a Cancer and a Leo and i know that the Cusp day is 23rd July but dude you call those feet sexy?' 
Another labeling done.
 Mean while this is what she actually thought, 'Bloody bitch has sexy awesome feet. Am so jealous. I can see my face in her feet. And on top of it she is a Cancerian? Cancerians are the most sexy people in the world. Oh God it couldn't hit me more in my face. Bitch Bitch. Hunhhh :\'


So poor awesome me like Cinderella couldn't do anything but helplessly sit in one corner while people debated over my destiny. Cancer Leo and Tauras. I felt Zodiac Signless and devastated. It seemed as if that was not enough and Fate had to laugh at me some more. 


Few months later, some shit head named Lawrence Grecco went up shamelessly and discovered that there is a 13th Zodiac Sign and they are calling it 'Ohpiuchus'. Then and there i lost it. It changed the entire dynamics of my belief system and my identity. I do not know who am i anymore. My sun sign becomes Cancer again (in your face Sharma) but my Moon Sign gets really fucked up.I am glad though that mom still doesn't believe that there can be a 13th sign but i am going crazy. I can't take it anymore. I don't deserve it, i don't need it. Happy thoughts NOW!


POST POST: Through this blog am asking you people for your support and the unconditional love to be with me. It is a tough time for me and my little brain and i need immense strength to cope up with it. I hope you understand. You are my best friends you guys. :)


Love,
Pk

Saturday, January 1, 2011

2010: Last Accessory

If at all somebody observed, that all my entries do not have a common thread and there is an absolute lack of pattern as well, except for the crazy fact that is there on the URL of this blog. Point is i don't care.
I as an MBA graduate have been force fed for 2 years to believe that when you start an organization or a project, make sure that there is a common thread that holds everything together. The problem with that is the fact that my left brain usually rejects everything my right brain says and the tragedy is that there is no one there to appreciate this weird working of my mind. I wish William Shakespeare were alive. Such talent such waste.

Enough of laughing your asses out now.

A very Happy New Year to all of you. Winter hugged Mumbai finally and i saw jackets, sweaters, shawls on the streets. Sun dresses are gone but thats not what this entry is about. With the cold kicking in, if you call it cold in here, the accessories in Fall 2010 were beautiful, shiny and bold. It was all about making a statement. My top picks were the bold leather ones for the day and sequined shiny things for the night when it descends. I was just going through a fashion blog and some sites and i saw few pieces that blew my mind. Also i own few of the things on the similar lines so i became Emo. :)

Enough of talking to you. See now..!

Starting from the classics that blew my mind to the shiny that swept me off my feet..!

The colour i love..





Grey has been the weakness of the season and the flat boots :)





This one got all my attention. Leather and a wooden heel. :)



Leather Leather on that bag. i used to hate you once upon a time till the day i got one as a present.


Suede was another HOT thing that ruled.











Another was the Shimmery night stuff. They call it Divine in Excess. Have a look.. :)







My favourite this one.. :)







A simple feast for the eyes. 2010 was an Awesome year and this decade was Amazing fashion but more on that one later. I need to do more research.
Later then..

Louuuu,
Pk'

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

It was 3 and a half years ago..

"I was humming as i walked down the rough thin lanes of the forest. Tall trees were still moist from the rain last night. Weather was pleasantly cold and so i  kept on singing. White, red, yellow flowers made the canvas look brighter. The sound of the nearby river rushing towards the majestic waterfall wall, enchanting, was music for my words. I had never realized that nature could be so majestic, so wild and at the same time so peaceful. I was afraid to go towards the waterfall and stand and admire its beauty. I was too small in its existence and it scared me. 


I made my way running down the hill along side the pebbles. I could see the waterfall at a sight close enough to feel it and far enough to not fall into it. Humming and imagining what it would be like to live here for some days i was walking carelessly. I forgot what made the forest so alive. I forgot what else can be majestic. I forgot that avoiding something doesn't necessarily mean it will never find you. There i saw..


It was standing in front of me. Looking at me. Calm, composed and ferocious. I froze where i stood. Suddenly the sound of my heart pounding and the water running became so clear. No animal spoke, no bird flew. I wanted to run as fast as i could  but i was afraid. This time i won't survive. I won't live. I stood there like a stone and so did he. I wanted it to go away. Some moments later i felt the curse of no motion lift. Then it started walking towards me. Strong powerful legs, beautiful brown skin, hair flowing in the wind, the overpowering aura, the strong jaw. It was hauntingly beautiful but i was scared of it. Then i saw its eyes. Warm, kind, full of love. There was something about them that made me trust it, that made me somehow believe that its not going to hurt me. Its there to protect me. I said to myself i do not need to be protected. That was the first time it spoke to me. It said, 'I am here to protect you. If you do not need that i won't go away. I will stay here as long as i think you need me. If you do not need me, i will go but i will still be around and whenever your heart will call out to me, i will come to you.' Suddenly i felt it, i felt the power of something extraordinary rushing through my veins. I felt the energy of the nature inside of me. I felt the courage in my heart. I was no longer afraid of the majestic waterfall or afraid of the lion that just spoke to me. I was awestruck by the beauty that surrounded me. I was awestruck that i had conquered what i feared the most. I was awestruck because i finally felt power in my heart, mind and soul. Then he came and stood beside me. Suddenly i saw myself standing at the waterfall. the sound of peace in wild. The sight passionate, big and  magnificent. I breathed that day." I opened my eyes and smiled. I rushed to my meditation guru to tell her what i just saw. She told me these things were special and so is the power that creates it in our imagination. Our mind, our heart and our soul.

A couple of months later, i was in the cafeteria sipping my hot streaming coffee and enjoying the rain. This still is my favorite season of the city. The cold rains and the sea just steals my heart every-time i look at them. Then he came. Strong, powerful, beautiful tan skin, hair flowing from the wind and that overpowering aura. I was intimidated by him. I had seen him before, but i hadn't seen him enough. That day i saw his eyes. They were the same eyes. Warm and kind and full of love. I just smiled and looked away. What i didn't see was that so did he.

'FaCeLeSs'

Of the Faceless Love i can tell apart
the colours that sing to me..
There is more to it than just a touch
There is more to it that can be..

In another valid world that exists
I know a Knight that Loves..
I Touch his face and smile at him
Oh and the Great things he does..

I pull him to my world and see
the Trees and Forests are gone..
The Moon no longer hangs on the sky
but just an empty barren land..

The brave Knight takes out his Heart
the colour they call it Red..
He Rips it apart and Showers it around
on every inch his Love Shed..

Creepers grow all Green Red Blue
with Flowers afresh and Wind..
Rivers flow down and Mountains rise up
the happy Bird now Sings..

I never said and you will never know
I Own World that Means..
Some Red some Gold as the story unfolds
Some faceless Knights and Queens.. ,, .

Monday, November 22, 2010

The Obsession Begins: C@RTOON C@RTOON

In this crazy world of crazier people sometimes you need to slow down, take a breath and feel the calm around you. It helps you think about the kind of person you once were and the kind of person you now have become. You might not be able to figure out how and when did you change but you will always remember why you changed and that change happening  right now will determine the kind of person you will become one day.

Today i need that calm to get back into the past for a while and discover some freshness in order to bring it back with me. I dedicate this post to all the cartoons and comics i read and saw and grew up. The best part is, all of it smells home. Read on:

#10: CAPTAIN PLANET: The lyrics are still fresh and so is the cause, 'To take the pollution down to zero.. Earth, Fire, Wind, Water, Heart!!' I always wondered as a child why is heart amongst the forces and then later on in life i realized that its the most important of it all. Helps me feel the rest 9 thats going to follow.
See the video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vpXM9bj-WPU

#9: JETSONS/ FLINSTONES: Set in the future (J's) and the historic past (F's), they were made for each other. I never could enjoy one without the other. Hooked on as i was all i saw was how beautiful things were and how interesting they can get in the future. Completely diverse and highly entertaining.
Look at the contrast: For J's http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WpBqYcGqaaw and the F's http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2s13X66BFd8

#8: POWER PUFF GIRLS: 'The secret ingredientChemical X'. Oh holy mother of God the secret ingredient 'Chemical X' of the girls formula always made me wonder a zillion things. I will never admit that in public so please do not ask but yes i  did some experiments myself with chemistry trying to figure out the... arrggggghhh nevermind i was lame with science anyway. Good fight put up by MOJO JOJO though :)
Loved the tittle track too: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4mmCMUPCNgE

#7: TALESPIN/ DUCKTALES: Okay i hated Talespin the first time i saw it. I mean ugly fat animals flying a plane? Dude! But anyhoo my kid brother was crazy about it so i ended up spending hours myself too watching it. Mostly i watched it because what followed was Ducktales ooohh hhoooo ooo.. (you were supposed to hear that with the trademark music which i hope you did for your own good ;) ) I was totally mad about the series, Uncle Scrooch, the triplets, Mrs Beakley and the gold coins. Me and Mishee had a deal, he watched Ducktales for me and i returned the favor with stupid Talespin. They were the best moments of my bossy childhood. Yes we bonded over Disney Hour. Thank uou Sony Ent Ltd, Star TV and ZEE TV.
See and vote: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7_cMaGt52QE ( The ugly bear) and http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=frGLMtGsotc ( The rich Ducks)

#6: CINDRELLA: The super hot Prince and his charms made me a girl in the heart. :) He was the first animated character i actually fell in love with.(Note: Crushes are not being taken into account here) He was handsome, polite, friendly, charming, intelligent and plain hot. Smoking rich. C'mon he had a palace and a castle.I know i was suppose to be innocent back then but then who are you to judge?!
PS: I somehow can't find the suitable links to show you but yes the show wasn't imaginary! :\ ;)
Unlike some other people may choose to believe. :\ (hunhh)

#5: PETER PAN AND TINKER BELL: When i was 8 i had this huge story book of peter pan and tinker bell. The font was largest and the pictures were colored, big and enchanting. Something about the entire thing was elegant and boyish at the same time. And the fact that they could all fly completely blew me away. The Superman powers never did that to me ever although. I think the reason was the fairy dust and tinker bells' house. Tiny and pretty.

#4: ALICE IN WONDERLAND: Okay have you heard the song by Avril Lavingne called 'Alice'? Do it right away and then continue to read: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vyDRbx8nWFg
Moving on, I hope all of us remember Alice and her adventures thanks to the 2010 hit movie, but i am talking little Alice and her vivid imaginations that made me realize that being crazy is so much fun. Also i think it was during that time when i started day dreaming creatively and created problems for my mom and dad. I never said i was an easy child. But the entire imagination still takes me to a place where i know that the heart and the mind come together to create something strong as well as delicately beautiful. To add, which i will, the fashion in the movie Dear God was breath taking. A dear designer friend 'Parvani' once told me, 'Dude fashion is heading towards something like what you saw in Alice in Wonderland and its so fucking crazy. Ya dude. Ya Dude. (more giggles)' Exact words. :)

#3: X MEN WOLVERINE: My brother keeps telling me, 'Didi your a boy and a partly nerd one. You beat boys at video games, you bossed over me our entire childhood, you used to beat and fight with your friends all the time, your a tech geek, and your practically crazy and very unladylike like except  for the looks' I take that as a compliment and move on but i do tell him its his fault. He is the one who introduced me to the X Men series. The animations, the comics and the movie. Then Hugh Jackman came along and the reason no longer stayed brotherly. ;)
I don't think i need to put links for this one. If you still need them to see what is a Wolverine then stop reading my blog right now its not for you. Go away.. Shooo....

#2: DEXTER'S LABRATORY: Very recently a certain 'Motylal' uploaded her profile picture wherein she tagged herself as the 'Dee Dee' and her brother as ' Dexter'. It inspired me to write this post in the first place. :) The point is, throughout my entire childhood and even now Mishee has been the science boy aka Dexter and has lived upto that name. On the other hand i am the 'Dee Dee' who is carefree and totally awesome. So out of respect for the show and my relationship with my younger brother, i take a few moments and write some more. I wouldnt have been the same without all the above cartoons and i definetly wouldn't have been the same without watching it along with Mishee. I totally love you man.
Click click and refresh the memory: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jSnij6sRbHA

# NUMERO UNO: THE LITTLE MERMAID: The flamboyance, the spirit of crazy, red flowing hair, carefree, adventurous, beautiful, strong, the courage of standing up for her dreams. 'Respect'. She was everything i wanted to be the moment i saw her on Disney Hour. That was also the first time i actually fell in love with me. Also lets not forget the super hot bonus she got. Prince Eric. Relating it to my personal life. Haha. Well even i had a certain fishbowl myself and in it i had put my 2 goldfishes and named them 'Ariel 'N Eric' See the picture!
They led a life of beauty and love. May they RIP..
Coming back, i am still completely awed by her character and persona. I am quite sure she would have been a Cancerian herself but more on that later. :)
Just see how the movie begins: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qPSddt8zORE
Its beautiful.

It always has been.
Lots of love,
Pk'

PS: If you were looking for Iron-man, Batman, Spider-man, Superman or any other kind of man do not be heart broken. That obsession never came until childhood. And by childhood i mean till i was 14- 15 yr old. And i was thin till then as well. So more on that also later. :)

Monday, November 1, 2010

For the brilliant publicist of Lady G..

This post is dedicated to Adrian Read and his talent as a publicist. 
I have been following Lady Gaga from the day I saw on you tube that ‘The Giorgio Armani’ has dressed up G for the 2010 Grammy awards and boy she was a sight. (http://operachic.typepad.com/opera_chic/2010/02/giorgio-armani-for-lady-gaga.html ) Futuristic fashion with a dreamy touch. Yellow hair and silver metallic gown. Unconventional, chic and elegant. She resembled moon which intrigued me even more.
I got hooked on and have been ever since.
They say G tries to copy Madonna. I say G is a phenomenon.
Look at the following chronological events that took place after the awards. Also please note that by this time, G was already huge with her ‘The Fame’ and not to mention again her edgy sense of style which is plain berserk and too unconventional for the human race.  Every time she makes a public appearance people are shocked and impressed at the same time. Many express their dislike but the point is she is the news every single time she is spotted by the camera. Have a look:

1    1. Lady Gaga dresses as a man who she claims is her alter ego and gave an entire interview which was the cover story for Vogue, Japan, for the September 2010 issue.


 2. Apparently our big star G had already had a comic strip published in 2009 and now she is making its sequel. FYI She was MTV Women of the year 2009 too. I know I should have started googling her much before Armani did. 


3. My favourite band COLDPLAY ( Respect) along with G help ‘APPLE’ announce its new products. Dude you have to look.
(It was during this time I discovered this song by G called Alejandro and went mad. Ya I know I am my crazy best.. lots of wink)


4. V Magazine seems to be encashing its G investments with our star G posing as ‘Statue of Liberty’  in Louis Vuitton next to the legendary Marc Jacobs.


5. 2 months ago I found this link while I was googling my current obsession G. This act of hers raised controversies but not as much as what was to follow. You have to click on the link:


6.  She dresses as a meat for MTV Music awards. Yes the meat was real meat. Look at it.
Her dress remains controversial and so her motive behind wearing something as outrageous as real meat. In an interview at ‘The Ellen Show’, she revealed it all.


7.   Smell like an abattoir. Lady Gaga joins hands with Coty Beauty and is launching her range of fragrances hitting the stores next year.


8.   Few days ago I was sitting with my laptop thinking about my career and opportunities. (You have to do things like that at times, its not entirely avoidable) I stumbled upon this site. I found my alternative career. I can be an efficient teacher for this course. I already sent my CV and yes no B Roy told me to do so. Have a look:


9. A dear friend argued endlessly during Market Research Lecture in favour of Replica watches. It was entertaining as it engaged the professor’s attention and we lived happily ever after for the rest of the class. It was one day and today is another. I just read online that G’s meat dress not the original but the replica was sold for $100K.

10.   With people  dressing up as star G for Halloween, who does Lady G dress up as when she goes for Halloween parties?
Answer: Cruella de Vil
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-1325450/Halloween-Lady-Gaga-smothers-fake-blood-transforms-gun-toting-Cruella-Vil.html
PS: For my Halloween party downstairs I tried to do a Lady G but with poor results as I discovered I had nothing in my wardrobe that made no sense except for my ‘RED BAG’ which I eventually did carry. Love Love!

People hate her and people love her. That's not the point at all.
Thanks to Adrian Read people know her and thats what is fascinating about the G tale.
Handling an artist is not easy. G has been known for her outrageous image and every time she finds a way to top that too. Its not her, its him.
And just as I am ending this post with nothing but respect for Adrian Read, the brilliant publicist who has handled Gaga before, i am hooked on to see what he does that ends up looking like she's gone one step further. 
I wait..!


Adrian Read has been with Polydor since 2007. During his career with the recording company  he “led press and online campaigns for artists including Ian Brown, Weezer, Morrissey, La Roux, White Lies and Duffy. In 2009, he was named Best In-House PR Person at the Record Of The Day Awards, and also picked up Best PR Campaign For A Breakthrough Non-UK act for his work with the aforementioned Gaga.” – CMU reports. Read has worked with Lady Gaga since her launch in the UK in 2008.

All my Respect and the 11th crazy thing I know G did few hours ago, she ate a Barbie doll at a gig for Halloween of course. No kidding. See it for yourself.

Love,
Pk